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[00:12.27]I waste my time on my whole life
[00:15.18]Hold my thoughts cuz I've been sleep deprived
[00:18.15]I waste my life in broke mind
[00:21.21]Hold my words cuz they never come out right
[00:23.52]I'm trying really hard to be someone you'd like
[00:27.51]I'm trying really hard to feel like I'll be be fine
[00:30.60]I'm trying really hard and maybe I'll find
[00:32.79]That my reflection in life isn't all that unkind
[00:36.60]Can't I be a little self sure
[00:38.79]Self secure on that I'm not all that I think I am
[00:42.60]Can't I get a little control
[00:44.94]Open my doors on that I'm not all that bad as I think I am
[00:48.51]I don't really care for what I have left
[00:50.61]Because I ******myself up so much I might deserve all this mess
[00:54.30]****all this love because I hate to admit
[00:56.64]That I'm really like this just scum piece of ****
[01:00.21]And I know I could be brighter
[01:03.21]Yeah I know I could aim higher
[01:06.15]I know I should think lighter
[01:08.13]I know I'll be fine if I was a tryer
[01:10.47]Yeah I hate how I can't let myself hang low
[01:14.49]If I didn't speak at all I think I would let it go
[01:17.34]But if I could say how I hurt I would promise to let you know
[01:20.40]But I've been feeling god**n low well I just can't let it go
[01:23.97]Do you remember 2013
[01:26.61]From then on I wished my life was unseen
[01:29.52]Cuz I hate who I could have been let myself slit up my skin
[01:32.55]And drown all my dreams going down in the sink
[01:35.88]I'm sorry maybe I should have tried harder
[01:38.34]Jumped from a bridge that was just that little bit higher
[01:41.13]I'm sorry my words can't be any sharper
[01:43.74]But I'd cut up my mind and set the remains on fire
[01:47.61]Yeah at least you could have said I'm gone on the d**gs
[01:50.58]But I am sober now and I still seem to ****up
[01:53.43]But I'm sorry I can't accept all your love it wears me off
[01:56.55]Leave me in my head because that's tiring enough
[01:59.97]I waste my time on my whole life
[02:03.63]Hold my thoughts cuz I've been sleep deprived
[02:06.54]I waste my life in broke mind
[02:09.27]Hold my words cuz they never come out right
[02:12.54]I'm trying really hard to be someone you'd like
[02:15.51]I'm trying really hard to feel like I'll be fine
[02:18.03]I'm trying really hard and maybe I'll find
[02:20.79]The reflection in life isn't all that unkind