[ti:Don't Know Anymore (Explicit)]
[ar:Central Cee]
[al:CAN'T RUSH GREATNESS (Explicit)]
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[00:00.15]Don't Know Anymore (Explicit) - Central Cee
[00:01.05]Lyrics by：Central Cee/Lily Kaplan/Mathias Liyew
[00:02.23]Composed by：Central Cee/Lily Kaplan/Mathias Liyew
[00:03.39]Produced by：Ambezza/Lily Kaplan
[00:26.18]To get to my current position
[00:27.39]I done more than 10000 hours
[00:29.21]Dreamt that I saw my name on a gravestone
[00:30.86]Maybe then they would give me my flowers
[00:32.52]Mum put 3 of her boys in the tub same time
[00:34.55]Cah we couldn't afford to shower
[00:35.91]Before man snaked me I already saw it coming
[00:37.91]I saw they were sour
[00:39.40]But now it's my time to experience fame
[00:41.05]The opps tryna find out where am I staying
[00:42.72]My girl don't believe anything I'm saying
[00:44.43]My family need anything I'm paying
[00:46.14]Sat down telling a therapist stories
[00:47.90]I know she ain't gonna relate
[00:49.11]What's this? What's that?
[00:49.84]I don't care to explain
[00:50.97]I'll deal with grief and bearing the pain
[00:52.83]I don't paint these girls in a positive way
[00:54.72]You can tell that my heart's been broken before
[00:56.86]Tryna heal but it's taking time
[00:58.10]What's the point in life?
[00:59.08]I don't know anymore
[01:00.29]Tell the young boys stay in school
[01:01.56]But I wouldn't be here if I followed the law
[01:03.49]I keep making dumb decisions like I don't have control of my thoughts
[01:06.83]The guys wouldn't know that I'm feeling like this
[01:08.53]'Cause I conceal and hide it
[01:10.33]Everyone's there on the weekend vibing
[01:11.88]Nobody's there when I need consignment
[01:13.63]I heard the quote that the strong survive
[01:15.19]But I still got a fear of us dying
[01:16.91]Some nights still toss and turn in my sleep
[01:18.74]Cah I seen some serious violence
[01:20.44]I was 6 years old when dad left home and they shot my grandad
[01:23.04]All of that at once
[01:24.22]My lil bro's still going to school
[01:25.58]But he wanna do everything that the gang does
[01:27.94]Now he's repeating the cycle
[01:29.11]Cah he's outside and he wanna go act up
[01:31.06]Got sick of the carton milk
[01:32.28]It was free school meals we never had pack lunch
[01:34.28]Cutting the mould of the loaf of bread
[01:35.94]And I looked in the fridge and the milk expired
[01:37.69]All of the mandem jumped in the trap
[01:39.37]Cah we put on The Wire and got inspired
[01:41.13]Not surprised when I see man lying
[01:42.68]It's fine I already clocked they're liars
[01:44.52]I just saw a cat that I know whilst driving
[01:46.21]I might park up on the block say hi
[01:47.86]Mum's house banging out Beanie Sigel
[01:49.61]I still don't feel much love in the air
[01:51.33]Lost faith in God 'cause I thought I was cursed
[01:53.17]Kept it to myself cah none of them cared
[01:54.80]Telling my baby
[01:55.56]"Wait I don't know how long it will it take I'm gonna repair
[01:57.96]If it all falls down would you bounce?
[01:59.45]If none of the tours sold out are you gonna be there?"
[02:01.66]There's a few times I lost faith in music
[02:03.28]I put out a tune and it didn't get views
[02:05.03]Me and my broski went and came up with a plan back then
[02:07.47]But it didn't go through
[02:08.47]You know that **** that you say when you're broke
[02:10.01]Like "When I get dough I'ma bring in you too"
[02:12.00]Then I blew up and reality hit
[02:13.72]**** now I gotta think this through
[02:15.33]Three little brothers
[02:16.40]Mum's 40 and still ain't paid off her student loan
[02:18.67]My dad can't move he's ****** paralysed
[02:20.53]Just went through some serious stroke
[02:22.19]The mandem calling me
[02:23.47]YG's warning me
[02:24.44]Saying that I gotta leave home
[02:25.57]I get more money more problems now
[02:27.31]I had less to worry 'bout when I was broke
[02:29.03]Remember I had one pair of Air Forces
[02:30.84]Tryna keep out the creases
[02:32.38]Now the front drive look like it's a showroom
[02:34.36]And none of them leases
[02:35.56]I'm extremely grateful for all my people
[02:37.99]Cah none of them leeches
[02:39.19]I dropped a tape got a billion streams
[02:41.07]And none of them even features
[02:42.57]Now my bredrin dissed me tryna go viral
[02:44.56]'Cause he ain't blown yet
[02:45.34]How is that my fault?
[02:46.53]I thought you was Christian
[02:47.63]Why don't you move like Mathew Phillip disciple
[02:49.67]But you wanna snake man move like Judas
[02:51.31]'Cause you ain't blew it's ****** vio
[02:53.14]And we're in London bare opportunity
[02:54.72]It's not like we live in Ohio
[02:56.02]I booked hotels and flights to all of these shows
[02:58.06]And brought you to all of these countries
[02:59.55]Say thank you and pretend that you're grateful
[03:01.28]But when I turn man's back say **** me
[03:02.95]Whole six months living at your mum's
[03:04.44]We was with big bro on our own it was us three
[03:06.29]Shouldn't ever bite the hand that feeds you
[03:08.17]I leave man starving cah you're too hungry
[03:09.76]I said that I got you but you didn't trust me
[03:11.50]I would've but you didn't give me the chance
[03:13.59]You can ask anyone of the mandem now if I ever left them in the dark
[03:16.66]Whatever's meant to be will be
[03:18.20]I can't turn back time or dwell on the past
[03:20.26]But I sometimes wonder
[03:21.44]Could have I got this far without losing my dargs?